Cold wind and football games

I have really loved going to my brother's football games this year. I am going to show you some pictures. He is officially big enough to kick my butt. He is huge and I still kiss him on the face. I love my family and you can surely tell. My sister and I are very supportive of each other and my brother. They won their football game last weekend 64 to 0. Pretty good I thought. A new rival has been started. I wish I could have played football but I settled for the dance team and thank goodness I got to attend every football game for four years of high school free. Now that the air is getting colder it makes it even more fun. Fall is in the air and my alumni fight song rings in my ears. Is it silly I still stand and do the drill team routine to the fight song? My sister and I still belt out the lyrics to our alma mater. Thank the Lord for sports, football, and big (younger) brothers who play the game and give you a reason to attend your old high school football games.

Blogging is time consuming...

I really just want to say that I do wish I blogged more. I have so much on my mind and heart and I really do have many pictures to share with you all. So I promise I will come back here on Wednesday and update this with pictures and things that have been happening here. I will leave one picture with you. Hudson got his new chair and he hates it with a major passion. He screams bloody murder in the chair and in his car seat. ....When you hear a crying baby think of me.

Too Busy...

Sorry I have not posted in a long time. I must say life has been a roller coaster. We are still in the same situation as before. I had a job interview Friday and I hope to hear back soon. We are looking at schools for Hudson and hoping to take a tour soon. Please keep praying for Phillip and myself. We are still experiencing many emotions that really hit us so quickly and sometimes leave in the same way. We really need wisdom and discernment. More to come soon.

Apartment hunting, pizza, and magazines....

So I went apartment hunting today. It was quite fun and I must say I believe I have made up my mind on where I would stay. We have rental options galore and it is amazing to me that I must deturmine which place would make the best home. The last two places I lived was not so much a choice. My first place on my own was a very old single trailer on my grandparents property. My grandparents own amazing river front property on the banks of the Tennessee River and in between two beautiful mountains. I hope to retire on this land someday. But you must know that on this amazing land is a circle of old some uninhabital trailers that they have used to rent out. My parents bought this old trailer in the 70's used. I lived there when I first came home from the hospital as an infant. So you can imagine when I lived there as a recent college grad that it was a bit worn. My grandparents graciously allowed me to live there rent free. I just had to pay the light bill as they called it. Water came free from the fresh spring on their property and was amazingly pumped into my trailer. It had potential in a creepy horror film sort of way. I lived there for two years. My second home was an apartment on the trendy, rich town of Signal Mountain. Phil and I live here still. Since I took a nanny position they offered an apartment as part of my pay and I must say they are great and spacious apartments and I have lived up here for 4 years and counting.

Now is time to move on....we must move off this mountain to save money on gas, car mantinance, and to be closer to all down in the valley. So I saw some really nice places today. Afterward I went to my dad's house and we had pizza and I was able to relax and look at all of Ann's awesome magazines and watch Bizzare foods...I love that show. I wonder where our next place will be. We looked at a house in Middle Valley on Sunday and it was cute and cozy. We shall see........

Do you trust me?

Sorry it has been such a long time since I have posted anything. Life has been busy and hard and at times fun. For the most part I see myself and my family standing at a crossroads of different choices. I have no idea which choice to make and so I wait. What I am waiting for I do not know but Phil wishes I would stop waiting to get a job....I have been more actively trying to find one. As I sit and watch my beloved husband try hard to feed my special needs son I have many emotions go through my mind and heart. One of amazing love for both and how blessed I am to have such an amazing husband who truly shows me how to live by the fruit of the Spirit. Secondly, how frustrated I feel that I am in this hard situation with my son and how much stress it adds to my life and my marriage. Thirdly, I roller coaster back and forth between feeling depressed and hopeless and ready to perservere and find out how God is using this for His glory. Right now my son has been put to bed and is crying for someone to come and hold him. It kills me to hear him but he is also realizing we will come to the rescue. So I am really struggling with many things right now: bill collectors, taking care of my son, getting a job, possibly moving, my desire to be healthy, the hard work it takes to have a solid marriage, allowing all of these things to mold me into more of a child of God. I am exhausted and maybe I haven't allowed the Holy Spirit to live through me. I think I am trying to do it all in my own strength. So here is the question: Do I trust Him?

Phil and I have been reading the amazing biography of missionary doctor David Thompson. The book is called"On Call" and I highly recomend this book. His testimony and story stopped me in my tracks one night. He had experienced a much worse trama than I and at the moment he found out the most horrible news of his life God asked him "Do you trust me?" Wow, do I really trust him that he is going to take care of my family? I have to daily even sometimes moment by moment answer that question and rest in His promises and goodness. Do I believe that what I believe is really real? I must and that requires action! I will trust Him like a little girl places her hand in her daddy's as he walks her across a busy street. I will trust Him like a baby getting its vaccines for the year. Even though it hurts and he is holding me down through the pain it is for my own good and He loves me. I will trust Him.

"Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take hime at his word, Just to rest upon His promise, Just to know "thus saith the Lord." Jesus, Jesus how I trust Him, How I proved him o'er and o'er; Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus! Oh, for grace to trust Him more." (Louisa M.R. Stead, 1850-1917)

Family Vacation

So it has been almost a week since we returned from sunny Florida. I am finally able to share my pictures with you. We had a great time with family, just relaxing by the pool and walking on the beach. The resturants and seafood were great and it was our first time to put Hudson in the pool. He really loved it and we were glad we went.

Road Trip to Daytona Beach....

We left Friday at 5:00 pm from my mom's house in Rossville, GA. We stopped at Cracker Barrel's to eat and feed Hudson and then 6 hours (or so I thought) to go and we'll make a pit stop in Tampa to visit Aunt Judy and family. We made great time from Chattanooga to Tifton, GA where we stopped to gas up and I got some natural engery booster that only gave heart burn. After Tifton, time and miles felt like they were standing still. We got to Tampa at 3am and went straight to bed. The next morning Phillip (Judy's husband) made pancakes and they even cut their pinapple that they had grown (which took 2 1/2 years to grow). We enjoyed visiting family and eating cubans. About 4pm we headed to Daytona for the rest of our trip. Enjoy pictures from the first part of our trip.

Carmen and I at Cracker Barrel ....

Pinapple at it's greatest....yummy!

Aunt Judy holding Hudson...

The girls in the garden.... Carmen, Me, Anise, and Judy (the guys are taking the pictures)

Phil wanted me to say hello to the Michael and Matthew......be good while we are gone.